Holy bat balls, Sir Monkey Fritzels….

Yes, the title is catchy and makes you instantly giggle but has absolutely nothing to do with anything other than it is Friday and you NEED to smile.
Today started with an uncertainty feeling and perhaps even a bit being out-of-control, but as the day progressed I learned how to adjust my mindset. What the hell is that? Adjust your mindset? Is that even possible? Of course it is and I totally did it! Sorry for sounding a bit crazed but today was an excellent and, yet at the same time, draining day.
Everyone has a troubled past or things that they wished never happened and those tend to leave physical/emotional/mental scars and even if you think you are healed… you eventually have to deal with the demons left behind. Today was one of those days.
I have always said that I forgive, I may not forget but forgiveness is the key. I was starting to think that might not be possible because I would still hold a grudge towards a person when I saw them and have ill feelings still bubble up and that scared me. If I did that, then they would always have that “power” over me and to live with that fear would be forever exhausting.
I spent most of the morning preparing myself to tackle this skeleton that has been in my closet for almost two decades. I know, what’s a few years? Problem is that if you keep giving it time to manifest in to something bigger than it needs to be, keep feeding it power, it will indeed consume you. I knew what I needed to do and what I should do. The real question was, could I? I am pleased to be able to say that I came, saw, and conquered a huge fear today. Best freeing feeling ever!  The first of the Holy bat balls for the day.
The next few holy bat balls were either of the “Oh for the love of Pete, please tell me she didn’t just go there” or the “I am Momma, and I know” moments. On the just go there note, well let’s just say it would be wordy, witchy, and please tell me your momma taught you better and so we will leave that for another bloggityblog blog. “I am Momma, and I know” happen daily so nothing new there. The big thing is not to let fear consume you… consume it and tell it to kiss your (fill in your own blank here).
What’s next you ask… the weekend crazy J so go out, enjoy it and BE FREE! J Blessed be!